Alas

These has been gray days for me. I just don't know what's going on. Every night I must struggle to get some sleep 'cause there're always noisy thoughts surrounding me.

During day time, most of times, I just feel deeply bored, lacking of motivation... And I cannot consider to run away, a motivation.

I'm really tired. I think that, not even a couple of weeks on vacation would do something for me. I would like to rest my feelings, kind of be absent from myself for a while. And not to think, not to talk about the things that are upsetting me.

"What to do? where to go? Do nothing and go nowhere, easy enough"

Cioran, E.M.

Alas, all of this leads me to think about...